I Survived

Good Morning Everyone. The trip to Boston was successful. Much of it was a struggle but I did get through it and even managed to have fun in the process with only one small breakdown because of my hunger. I have discovered that hotels rooms on the 22nd floor are so fun but the elevator was one of the worst feelings I have felt since I've had Labyrinthitis. I had amazing people around me through the weekend which always helps bring you up. When going through Labyrinthitis it is extremely important to have a good support system around you. Those who are there to pick you up when you fall. There are days that I am so dizzy it is hard to walk on my own. My fiance or my mother or father are there to hold my hand. Everyone is pretty willing to drop what they are doing to take me to an appointment. I am getting there. One little step at a time. The anxiety has set me back so much and sometimes it is so frustrating knowing that I was almost there...I could smell a normal life without dizziness and it all turned around. I get angry about that but I try to just look to the future. Some days it is hard to think about the future. I don't want to be dizzy forever. Everyone seems to think that the hearing aids I am getting in August will change my life. I think that it will help. I'm looking forward to that moment and tear up thinking about not struggling to hear someone. It just adds to the struggle I face everyday with the dizziness. No wonder why I am so tired all the time.

A BIG baby step

I have not written for quite a while. There are only 3 months until the wedding and that has been consuming so much of my time. I am someone who takes on everything even if I don't have the time to do it all. Up until today I have been taking baby steps toward recovery. Very small tiny little baby steps. From where I was in February, all those baby steps have become one great stride. I am still dizzy so much of the time. Once in a while I have an amazing day where I have almost no dizziness but the conditions all have to be perfect (an amazing night's sleep, full stomach, and no fullness in the head) But really what I came on here to say is that today is the first trip I have taken since this all began in November. We are on our way to Boston this weekend for the 4th of July. There will be so many obstacles that I will need to tackle. I am ready and willing to take it on but I'm afraid that my body is not. All of the experiences that I will come in contact with this weekend I have done before. I love Boston. It is my favorite city and I have never been scared of it until today but I am determined. This time things will look different from what they once were as I will be looking at it through the eyes of a girl with Labyrinthitis. I can get through this and I will enjoy myself. I will be surrounded by great friends and good times. I will let you all know how it goes!